My Mother I knew as “Monster” And This Is My Mother’s Day Special.

Happy Mother’s Day to everyone!   All celebrations are a very good thing, and essential for our health and joy bringing,  whatever our reason, culture and faith, be they different, contradictory, or the same. 🙂

How we all feel is important to me, so I feel to share for those of us who may not be feeling as ‘good’ as they think everyone else is…or how they should feel, ‘if only things were different’…it is all as it is meant to be however. 😉

One thing I know about is how it makes you feel on Mother’s day growing up, when your own mother is a monster.  For those of you unfamiliar with my story, my mother had sadistic paraphilia and was evil in the true sense of the word ‘seeking personal benefit from harm.’  She felt pleasure from causing distress, discomfort and pain, and went to enormous lengths her entire life to manipulate the thoughts and beliefs of those who knew her, as people not knowing of what she really did was necessary for her pleasure, and symptomatic of her illness.

A ‘Mother’ was not something I thought that she was, as the word is also an adjective denoting care taken, ‘to mother’ something, is to nurture, so the word ‘monster’ for her, was a natural alternative for me as a child, for that was how I saw her and how she made me feel.

I certainly know what it feels like on Mother’s day – and all the days leading up to it – with all the reminders, cards, gifts, advertisements, special projects in school class…when you have a really horrible mother.  And some of us do. 🙂

Our parents serve the purpose of playing their part of enabling us here on Earth, to do what we are meant to do.  Not all of us will find it easy to relate to them.  Some of them will have no idea of the larger picture, and the need for more developed souls to be present on Earth at this time of the dawning of great change.  Certainly there are those of us who are parents now, who are more conscious than our own parents, and these children we are helping to be the containers of greater light.

For many of us though – particular young near-adults – I feel there are probably many more challenges at relating to our parents, now, than ever.

What I know now, is for those of us who are challenged with how we do manifest on this earth realm, ours is do find out later what specific gifts we have to share.  I promise you we will have joys that others who are not so challenged initially, will not.

In the meantime, wise up to the vibration that is our truth, and the raw component of what really matters. 😉

Keeping a higher vibration..and maintaining a higher vibration is what matters.  Celebrate mother’s day as a day to celebrate, but do not let it get you down.  Or celebrate it as a day we think of mothering, of nurturing, of The Goddess mother, or of Mother Earth.  Know your mother was terrible and not a good example of what you are celebrating, but that is just the way it was for us. 🙂 Remind yourself that it is your role and path, to do something different.

Or get creative! 🙂  As Humans we ARE our creativity and maybe you can choose another mother figure from the mother’s of friends, or some other idea you come up with. 😉  I took Mother Earth as my mother and it strengthened my bond with all nature, then a family I lived with in my late teens, then I created a family through children I sponsored.  We just need to feel an energetic support, if there is a void we feel that are own ‘mother’ does not adequately fill for us.

I love that there is a day for Mothers.  I love all special days where we can evoke gratitude in ourselves and each other.  A state of Gratitude is a higher state for us, and where I like to reside as my norm, as do many others who know ‘the way’. 😉

I love Mother’s day as a day for us to feel a special bond with our babies, our families,our friends who have babies, and our species as we grow, develop,and evolve into our wisest healthiest and happiest Selves. 😀


Comment to a comment I heard on The View on t.v.

  • comments to child abuse
  • more challenging lives examined
  • perspective and reasons given

I heard one of the ladies on The View say “child abuse murder’s the soul of the child”, and I lost my breath for a moment and need to share that it doesn’t at all.

Certainly healing is required, and can be non-progressive when falling into institutions that do not understand the larger workings behind things;)

The truth is, it can be exactly what our soul had chosen.

An enormous amount of behind the scenes organisation goes on, for our soul to manifest in this life, as us.

We choose our situation for manifesting.  I was aware of this when living in the abusive situation I was in.  I can clearly recall asking my guides  “why do I have this life again?  Oh yes…”  I was brought comfort from it, when there was none else available.

We do not choose each and every event that may occur, but we certainly choose our parents – our necessity for manifesting in the physical.  We must enter at conception, build our body around us, and be birthed here on Earth.

We choose our parents based upon a number of things, but mainly to enable us the very life path that we are requiring for this round of ‘The Growth Of My Soul Game’ on that glorious green & blue 3 dimensional realm called Earth, where we can touch and sense and get a life and a body.

Rather than a child’s soul being murdered through abuse, the soul aspect of that child, may be the strongest and most developed part.

We do not have a life that we are not ready for.  We deserve the life that we get for ourselves, in so far as we are seeking growth for us.  We are seeking to advance our soul’s development, to attend to healings and experiences that will bring us this growth.

It is the wiser ones, and the more advanced a soul, who is able to achieve for themselves, a more challenging game.

Forget role-playing Dungeons & Dragons…..we are living the game!;))  : )

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