Many many more attempts and scars and frustrated punches later, I had pain inflicted upon me daily unless I was lucky enough to escape it, by consciously avoiding it at every turn.
I became an expert on it from the life I then created for myself. I can relate to the soft tissue pain from skin trauma to muscular pain, bone pain, nerve pain, all the ones in between, and the differences in ratios therein, with regard to pain threshold and intensity. I became an expert on emotional pain, psychological pain and grief until I overloaded and numbed out, in a zombie- like depression. I became an expert on how to ‘bear it’ or go through it, how to attract it, heal from it, then finally how to stop attracting it and be done with it!
Pain was an everyday experience for me and I learned a lot from the effort that was required on my part to change this in my life. It took years. It took years and years to realize that I was attracting it into my life, and how to stop it. I came very close to not making it as I was in imminent real danger countless time. My last near death experience was what it took.
Pain can be so familiar, trauma can be familiar, suffering, anxiety and stress can be familiar.
But, when something is familiar, the bigger problem is… it becomes what we create, what we expect, what we imagine, what we anticipate and prepare for. It is our entire container of perception. And, by doing so, we create it!!!
When all we know is pain, it can be really hard and extremely challenging to let it go. It can be totally new to learn we do not need to feel it. It can be a totally foreign concept to even consider that there can be a time when there is not regular daily pain.
It can seem impossible, that we are meant to feel pain, we are meant to just take anything. This was my experience. I felt destined to feel it, that I was meant to, because I could cope, that it was ‘my lot’ in life to be in constant pain, that I and my feelings didn’t matter. In fact my mother had ordered me “Consider yourself last, if at all.”
It can be extremely difficult to grow accustomed to knowing life doesn’t have to be that way. We can be so familiar with pain that to not have any can be unheard of and unimaginable. We feel it, so we subconsciously replace it with more. The more pain we are used to, the more pain we can take, the more pain we feel we are meant to take.
My mother even commanded me I had to “grin and bear it” that I “should be able to stick a fork into my leg under the table and not show it on my face.”
The thing is…the important truth is…is that it is us who creates this pain for ourselves. We are so familiar with it, we subconsciously require it, to return to our ‘norm’ to our ‘familiarity’. How can we be delivered something that is not pain causing, if we do not allow for it? WE must put effort into going against the flow of ourselves, within ourselves!
It requires strength and enough intellect to alter your own behavior, to consciously decide that is what you are going to do, and to act on it repeatedly. Until no pain is the new familiar, then and only then does it takes less energy, when your being has achieved a new equilibrium. At its most simplistic, it is all about energy management, and moving to a place of a raised energetic vibration, with new behavioral pathways created and reinforced inside your brain.
There are techniques to free ourselves of residual pain-attracting energy held, and all ‘grief, hurt and distress’ held. Some of it can be done without passing through our sensory systems again, but we need to be prepared feel it through, and there is nothing so bad or awful inside ourselves that we cannot take, for it is ourselves.
Once we decide, and prepare for it in a quiet time and space taken for ourselves to do this ‘transformational work’ , we can ‘watch’ it pass through us objectively. It is nothing to fear, as it is just us, waiting to be loved and protected by us. This is actually our job! To feel it, and to revisit it, in a careful way, so that it may leave you FOREVER, does that not sound attractive?;) Techniques I favor most are the subject of another writing, too involved for this overview article.
Do it for yourself, free yourself from all that unnecessary pain baggage! Do it for me. Do it for all of us. Do it for our Earth. 🙂
On a personal level: Know that there is a bond between all of us who have experienced tremendous pain and suffering. There is nothing to be ashamed of, after our pain causing experiences, we have this potential holding of debris energy that can be traded in for growth, further strength and greater wisdom. Any space that we create as it leaves us, is naturally replaced with white light vibration – the highest frequency vibration – enabling us to feel lighter with a greater capacity for joy.
On a global level : From a place of pain-free inner peace and happiness, is where we create at our best, without preconceived judgement and past pain filled projections interfering with our ability to perceive clearly in the here and now.
Remember ‘We reap what we sow’? Do we then not ‘Sow what we reap’? Far more difficult indeed to suddenly change crops WITHOUT careful conscious decision-making and preparation. The same with our pain.
We are inside a nervous system for a purpose, and pain – which I define as an ‘unpleasant sensation’ – is information we are giving ourselves. It is a message from our body and from our higher, more aware selves, to us the conscious one, that something is not quite right. It is meant to cause us to take action, to do something to alter another thing, so we do not need to go through ‘it’ again.
This, is when attracting more of the same becomes obviously an ignorant and ridiculous result! : )