What I consider is the absolute good fortune in any misfortune I have experienced – particularly in childhood – is the completely fresh and open-eyed perception I was given on the world.
Absolutely nothing was as it seemed in my home life, and I played a part in the deception, for fear of what may happen if I didn’t.
It seemed only logical to me, and as my mother explained “it is only what people think that matters” , that much goes on that isn’t really the way it appears.
Finding the sense behind things became my birthright, and quite the only way I was able to avoid harm in the home environment.
I discovered many things that I grew to rely upon and depend upon, were not anywhere to be found in the many books that lined the family shelves.
These books were on everything, the classifying of everything, the expertise and knowledge on everything being proven or discussed. These books, I also became aware, contained the apparent proof of the superiority, that my mother believed she had over others.
Being injured daily in a home that to all outside intents and purposes, was a loving family, was desperately saddening to me. There was no allowances or services to live away and I did not have any other family I could depend on as none visited. No one visited at all. There was no one to tell.
Energies and feelings were enormous company for me and I only grew more and more sensitive to them. I spent enormous periods on my own, away from anyone who would hurt me. I had very strong bonds with any family pets as I felt much more attached to them than the other human beings in the home.
Not allowed to speak or make any sound, absolutely enabled me to fast track to a spiritual development that would have been much more difficult to obtain another way.
Today, I do not have a worry or a thought enter my head unless I put it there. I have complete faith that I will know what it is I need to know, when I need to know it. I feel what is being told to me, or what I may receive in my body, and give it the same credence as information that enters my mind or thought space. The advantage this gives me in life I cannot emphasize more. Life just completely opened up to me, expanded, and became obvious.
I learned thought mastery the ‘hard way’ but also the way of no exception, and by absolute necessity, so in that case it was the ‘easier way’;) Before I had learned how not to attract further suffering, it really was at one stage, that I could not bear to live with the thoughts I was having for another minute.
I consider myself to be an expert on Misery Management. Or how to cash in your misery chips for joy! Absolutely, the more suffering you have experienced, the more capacity you have to experience joy. It is true about balance, yin yang, light dark, good bad – all true.
I want everyone to know all that they are in this moment, as I am very concerned about the general stifling of our entire species. What I call Chronic Deficiency Syndrome is having an enormous effect on the human population. I can see clearly that this is largely caused by our own creative stifling, from our own organisational constructs, developed from ignorance of ourselves.
Contributing to our Chronic Deficiency Syndrome is the stifling of our creativity with languages , and a widespread acceptance of a negative or sad state of being, as the norm.
Not interfering with natural selection and survival of the fittest were the reasons and arguments for much that has come about historically, by humanity, when planning structures for society. I would like to strongly suggest that we do an overview, and bring into correction what is obvious that can be improved upon, now, with the wisdom that we have available to us.
We have never before had such a terrible state of human health and decline, and when it is our own creativity that has caused it, our own creativity can correct it! : )